Dear future husband

Current location: Cheras
Current music: 

You complete my fate
The world unwinds inside of me
You complete my fate
The halo crawls away

Salam!

I wanna talk about marriage. I don't know why I just want to ramble about it. Maybe because of the weather. Nah, it's just me. Well, I was just wondering what marriage feels like? I would like to mention here that I'm a very private girl and there's a fat chance that I won't be married to anyone, anytime soon. I don't like people messing with my personal space. Yeah, it's me. I have a very serious problem and nobody can treat it, not even myself. Ok, so back to the topic, what does it feel like to be married?

Let's think about it for a minute, you have to be with that person for your whole life. There will be no secret between you and your spouse, not forgetting all the work you have to do in order to make sure that your married life wouldn't fall apart, and it can be a little annoying sometimes, don't you think? Maybe love is a good enough reason to be together forever but I just can't imagine me, living with some guy. I would go crazy, like seriously.

Take my mom, for example. Sometimes I know that she cannot stand my father. They always argue about a lot of things, most of it is just too trivial to even matter. I think 30+ years of living together can do that to you.

So what is my point here? Hmm, I sure as hell don't know myself. 

But I did said this to myself a long time ago. If I ever going to get married, the guy would have to be Japanese. Again, I don't know why. I kinda just thought about it on the spur of the moment. Meaning that I won't find my future husband, ever.

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I know I've been neglecting this blog for quite some time now, and I admit since my life is so hectic and it's getting tougher and tougher to keep up with everything. Sorry folks. But despite what it seems, I would never abandon this blog all of a sudden without telling anything first. So thank you for your visit and hope that you'll have a nice day! 

UN-happy ending!

Current music: And lift up your head,

                     Oh, the night's long and lonely,

                     And nothing's the same when you're gone. 

I hate sudden endings. End of story.

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See what I mean? No explanation, no reasons, no nothing. Just that. And I really especially hate sudden endings in  manga because let’s face it, who likes to wait for nothing right? You waited faithfully every week or even months for a new (ahem) scanlated chapter to come out and then suddenly after all of the waiting you've done it’s ending like everything’s a joke. I think that one of the suckiest endings of all time in manga universe is Yankee-kun to Megane-chan / Flunk Punk Rumble. I was like...WTF WAS THIS SHIT!? Now, I LOVE that series, don't get me wrong. I mean it's a great manga and it would have been fine if they just cancelled it and leave the rest of the series open to let the readers make their own ending as how they'll see fit. But when the people who decided that this fantastic series need to be cancelled immediately which leads to that horrible, crappy, disastrous, whatever ending, it makes me want to turn into a frickin’ Godzilla and terrorize the whole world. Seriously. What a crap. I truly despise rushed/sudden endings. That’s all I wanted to say. Thank you for listening to my pain.

Adachi and the gang

Imma Bee

Currently... : suffering from stomach ache. Aaarrrgghhh!!!
Current location: junction between waking world and the dreaming.
Current music: You don't need to change, your future's with us.

I don't know why but my tummy huuuuuuhhrrrhhtt soo much right now. Huhu... But anyway, my thoughts comes first so I have to endure this excruciating pain somehow. It was two weeks ago when I last posted something on my blog and I'm suppose to take a break in order to give way to my studies and such. Due to this I don't think I can post anything for awhile. Busy busy busy! Assignments keep piling up on my desk, so got to finish it all before I get into much trouble later. Hence, I'm saying farewell for now (but not forever, don't fret!) and until we meet again my dear readers, and fellow bloggers, Hwyl fawr! (a.k.a bye!) :D

Geek & Poke

Correction: I should BLOG about it first.

Out of the box

Currently: reading some aritcles and forums
Current location: on a 3rd floor somewhere.
Current music: All the times that I cried, keeping all the things I knew inside, It's hard, but it's harder to ignore it. 

I love conspiracy theories. OK...not a good way to start a paragraph, is it? Well I have to admit that I really love conspiracy theories and all that jazz. I don't know why, but it started just recently by the way, or more precisely right after I finished The Arrivals. I'm not saying that The Arrivals was made up of pure conspiracies, since it's also based on the holy Al-Quran and from the Muslim point of view. There are a lot of conspiracy theories out there, you just have to know where to search but I find that those that  involving NWO (new world order) is the most engaging to me.

You know, it's amazing how these conspiracies can sometimes makes no sense and yet it makes me want to reflect more on the issues as well. It makes me want to search for the truth further. I have no idea how these conspiracy theorist have the abilities to connect each point and details and joins them to form a much bigger picture, considering how minute the details were sometimes. Fantastic. And the best part of it all is not the conspiracy theory itself actually, but the debate that comes out after, between those who support it and those who argue. It's an amazing eye opener what some of these opinions by other people's are. They tend to make me see things that is outside of the box! You should try it sometimes. Read on some of the conspiracy theories and see all the debates or forums regarding it. Don't judge them because they don't think like you are, but in some way try to open your eyes and enrich your knowledge! Rather than discussing on trivial matters that doesn't enlarge your knowledge nor worth your time. Thus I urge you to think outside of the box starting today!

Avast, me hearties! Fer today is the 'Talk like a Pirate Day', did you know? Well, I don't know about yer, but I don't know much about pirate language so in commemoration o' it, I be sayin' just one thing... Aarrr!!

Imma be on the account then! Fair winds!

Yo-ho-ho! :D

the story begins

Patutnya aku sekda masa nak tulis blog tok. Tapi disebabkan ada banyak aku nak cerita jadi aku adakan juak masa dan luangkan sikit pake nulis. Aku nektok bagi yang belum tauk gik, dah masuk U. Kat sine ya, ada antara ktk org nanyak. Aku diterimak masuk ke Universiti yang dolok dikenali sebagai Universiti Pertanian Malaysia dan dah ditukar nama nektok jadi Universiti Putra Malaysia. First bila aku terimak tawaran ya aku terus nerais madah ngan mak aku yang aku dapat masuk. Nang happy la jiwa dan raga aku...hehe. Sebab dolok time aku gik miak, aku memang mok masuk Universiti. Cikgu-cikgu semua madah mun blaja biarla sampe ke menara gading. Jadi aku pun happy, mak bapak aku pun happy. Jadi kmk org semua happy dan menjadi happy family the end...eh!?

Lom abis gik! Jadi aku (bukan akulah tapi boss aku yang kuar duit, Mak Seh Pa!!!) dah beli tiket, kemas barang semua, aku dengan semangat berkobar-kobar melangkahka kaki mok menyambung cita-cita nak belajar. Tapi semakin jauh aku berjalan, aku jadi semakin sedih... Aku sepertimana yang ada sesetengah orang yang kenal ngan aku, is a very very Sarawakian. Means that aku tok terlalu sayangkan Sarawak, Sibu in particular. Aku sayang mok keluar dari Sibu sebab bandar yang amat dekat di hati...cewah!! Tapi nang menar la. Walau canggih ne pun bandar-bandar lain lam dunia tok, mun sekda Sibu, sekdalah aku kan??? Anyone agrees??

Dengan hati yang separuh rela, aku nait juak belon dengan berfikir tentang macam-macam jak. Selamat sik aku kat sinun lak, ada kawan sik, camne bilit aku, orang kat sinun bait ka jaik, dapat belajar sik aku ngan aman, susah ka diam sorang-sorang...tentang benda-benda camtok... Bila dah sampe kat sitok, rasa lain macam. Aku sedar yang aku bukan gik kat Sarawak, di sine org membahasakan dirik kamek atau kitak, aku sekarang kat Lepehland... wawawawa. Sakit jiwa aku!! To be continued....

I thought I knew

Current mood: I'm fine, just a little tired
Current music: "I wanna live again, I wanna start everything over again"
Current location: In my room

Once upon a time, I really like a boy. Turns out, I don't need a boy, what I need is a man. Once upon a time, I thought I was in love and I thought that he was the one. But he's just another boy it seems as he never thought of me as the one for him. Once upon a time, I used to believe that I could achieve something more in life, just as long as I try. But the more I believe, the more reality starts to sink in that no matter how much you try, it's never ever going to be enough. What you need is not to try, but to do. Once upon a time, I was happy. I was very happy and living my life as if there was no tomorrow. No worries, no issues, no complication and no pressure that can bring your life upside down. But I grew up or at least growing older and you know how that feels. Once upon a time, time is a foreign and an unimportant subject. Now, it's the only thing that separates life from death. We are alive because we got time. Once upon a time, I used to dream all the time, now the only time I'm allowed to dream is when I'm asleep. That is if I'm able to sleep. Life isn't always wonderful and sometimes doesn't even need any figuring out. It's like a neverending puzzle or nightmare but they tend to figure themselves out on its own in the end. Like a math equation, they always balanced each other out. Ok, I'm not trying to talk about math here, just something to think about.

I've been lazy, and just loitering around my house doing nothing which lowered the drama in my life to the minimum. I tried to enjoy my freedom as much as possible because once I get out of here, I have no idea when I can be a lazy ass again. So far, my laziness doesn't make me feel too good as I gain some weight by not moving around a lot but it's fine. I'll live.

What? My own blog??? Am I crazy??

Current Mood: I'm feeling good
Current Music: "Analog girl in a digital world"
Current Location: I'm just wandering around...around my head

I've never dreamt of having a blog to call my own. But still here it is! It's so weird because I'm not really much of a fun person, or someone who has a lot to say. So if you're reading this, I'm feeling sorry for you because I don't have a clue what my blog is going to be about so I might just waste your time here.

Where should I start? Shouldn't I introduce myself first? Or I could just ramble about stuff that you might not even care to know...whatever! So I'm a girl, duh, living in Sarawak, Malaysia, Sibu to be precise and I love this town. The people...not so much. Well some of them do indeed are lovely and them, I love of course. but there's something about Sibu that no other place has and I'm not quite sure what or why actually. I guess the notion ' Home Sweet Home ' is rather suitable for me to describe Sibu.

Now I'm waiting for my upu results, so I'm quite nervous. I might or might not get accepted to the University of my choice (UPM in Serdang) to further my studies. But if I do got accepted, which I really really do hope so, then that would be my first time leaving and living in other place outside of Sarawak. Kinda scary if you think of it, but also exciting at the same time. The only thing that I could do right now is just to wish all things to be well. So until then...live long and prosper! (erk! Not a trekkie and never a fan but borrowing the motto wouldn't hurt, would it??) Ciao!