Monday, June 16, 2014

I never thought that you'd lose the light in your eyes.

Dear you.

I miss you.
I really miss you. So much.
I wish I had the words to describe my feelings but
none of them could justify what I'm going through right now.
Please know that you've been in and out of my mind
for the longest of time. 
From the first time I've known you in fact.
My feelings for you cannot be erased that easily.
But despite that, it's getting weaker and weaker everyday.
Just like how the sands on the beach were carried away by the waves.
Bit by bit, I'm starting to forget you.
Little by little, you're not there anymore.
I know I have to move on.
I know that.
And I think I am. Just not at the speed that anyone would expect.
Hence why the remnants of our past together,
all the bits and pieces bringing me back to you.
Some were coming back to me. 
You left a big hole in me.
I don't know how to fix that.
If you could see what I have inside my heart for you.
I waited for you.
I patiently did.
If you could only see how I feel.
If only you could see.
If only you could see, me.
But you can't see me.
You refused me.
I was hurt.
We both were.
So I left.
Just like that I left.
And you let me.
You let me leave.
And I have nowhere else to go but to drift away.
Maybe it's not you but it's me.
And maybe we were just not meant to be.
But this hole that you left inside of me.
I don't think it can be fixed by just anyone.
My heart is strong, I don't doubt that.
I know I'm gonna pull through.
My heart, it was never yours to begin with.
It was mine.
I miss you.
But most of all, I miss me.

I wish that you read this, so that you understand what you have done.

So you can see...

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