This is dumb

Currently... : I'm reading claymore 102

Current location: somewhere between Thailand and the South China Sea...go figure

Current music: Out of sight, out of mind, out of reach, start over... is no way to begin...

It's 3.16 am right now, and I have class at 8 am...gasp! Why do I stay up so late??? I don't know the answer to that myself... maybe I'm just dumb... I don't know... I'm tired.

So today, I just realize something. We have a motivational speak by one of our dear lecturer and one of the motivation speaker or trainee said something that struck me pretty deep... every moment we faced with a choice. It's either we take it or we don't... but every choice is MY choice...get it? It's like every wrong turns or bad decisions or if we find ourselves in a bad situations, sometimes we blame other people and make up lots of excuses unaware that actually there is no one else to blame but ourselves. So why do I study? That's one of the question that he asked us. What's the purpose to go to university and be a student? It's a simple question but try answering that yourself... Why and for what purpose did you DECIDED to do the things you do.

I'm not exceptionally clever or anything like that, in fact far from it. I'm humble because of it, so I would like to say that I do regret some of the past decision that I take earlier in life, and I have no one to blame but me. I should have and could have done much much better if only I realized it sooner then. But, I can't regret what I can't see in the future...it is my decision so I better go with it and do my best. Yes, it's going to be a thorny road where I'm going, yes, I might be lost somewhere along the line and yes, I don't know whether I can stay on-board the ship and reach my destination safely or not...but I do know that every single thing in my life is due to MY choice, and no one else...

So I've gotta stop making excuses, stop feeling sorry for myself and stop being miserable just because things don't go my way because I'll never be who I wanted to be if I keep doing all that, and I want to be a great person, insyaAllah...

This is dumb, and I said dumb twice already, and I'm ranting and no one cares anyway. So, I'm signing off! Later!

can't be saved

Currently... : my mind is saying bleakhh
Current mood: bleakhh!
Current music: shut the door and turn all the lights outAnd listen to all the songs that the night shoutsThey go something just like this

First of all, I would like to wish a very HAPPY 23rd BIRTHDAY to:

MR. TOM ALFRED!

hehe. Now we're even! We're OLD Tom!! uwaaa... I know you're having a par-tay tonight, so drink responsibly yah!

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So, what do I hate most? hmm....

Life's too short for hate!

It's not in my nature to blow up in front of people whenever I'm mad at them. I do, but only to those who are very very close to me. But I RARELY get mad to people that I am not familiar with. If I'm angry with them, the only thing that I would do is to avoid them. But I never hate them. Because life's too short for hate... It'll hurt a lot at the beginning, but surely in time, it'll heal. Life's too short for hate...

get out

currently... : I'm reading a very funny blog. she's a genius
current location: http://www.justjudithsays.com/
current music: Something's gotta changeGood bye yesterdayTry again today something's gotta change

when I read a blog about local students studying abroad, I would get this funny feeling... call it jealousy, call it envy, call it whatever you want, but I, sometimes wish that I could be that person and get out of this place. The sooner the better. I want to be there, a chance to be on the other side of the world, to experience life, something much bigger than what I have now. I know, I sound like an ungrateful little minx. But that's what truly want. I want to get out of here. There's got to be something much more for me out there, right? If only I was filthy rich!

On to some other random thing, I witnessed an accident yesterday, while having a claypot noodle at the mines (I don't like the noodles, I'd rather buy mee sedap than buying this noodles ever again! huh!). Though no souls were harmed, it looks like the car that was collided with the truck was damaged pretty badly. I could swear I saw the guy weeped. -or- maybe that's just my imagination (sebab aku ada imaginasi yg tinggi). That's why I don't like to drive here. Org sitok driving cam h1n1. Perangei x semperna nar! Asal dpt overtake jak puas la hati sidak. sial! Too bad I don't have any pictures. Drive safely guys! Biar lambat asal nyawa x melayang & mati katak. In the end Sapa rugi? Anda dan keluarga andalah! Dahla x sempat mengucap!


- Random things I found on the net -
Tonight I am so ___________________. (sleepy but I refuse to shut my eyes just yet)

Today was a/an _________________ kind of day. (uneventful)

Our weather was ________________ this morning. (rainy)

My favorite time of day is _______________________. (dawn)

The last thing I do before I go to bed at night is __________________. (pray)

I wish that I could go ____________________. (anywhere but here)

The first thing I do in the morning is ___________________. (thinking, "all is well")

I should have ______________ yesterday. (said goodbye to)

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word of the day: Piglet Flu

During times of pandemic, the common flu is known as Piglet Flu. While less deadly than Swine Flu it still makes you feel like shit. However, because it is not infamous like swine flu you get no respect from having it. So you feel like crap and no one gives a damn because you don't have h1n1.

Doctor: How do you feel.
Patient: Like shit.
Doctor: Well the tests came back, you don't have swine flu. So get the hell out you lazy good for nothing bastard. Come back with a real illness.

Patient (as he is thrown out) But i really do have the flu. Even if it is only piglet flu.